Yesterday was a very trying day. I am not at liberty to go into details. Not just because it has to do with personal issues someone else is dealing with, but also because this is about me and how I’m feeling this morning.
I tried writing a poem that was indicative of the way I was feeling today, but all I could write was
The wild wind that blows
Is like the storms in my soul…
Sometimes the emotions don’t come in nice, neat little rhymes. And that’s the way I’m feeling right now. I feel complete and utter peace, I feel a wild string of feelings and questions I don’t know how to express to the Lord.
But all this brings me back to the Bible. Yes, the Bible. It is a subject I write often and will continue to write about. It is the theme of my life. It is where I find safe harbor when my storms are about to blow apart my soul. The Bible; it’s not a book for wimps let me tell you.
Here are a four of the many “whys?” different Psalmists asked:
Psalm 10:1 [ Psalm 10 ] Why, Lord, do you stand far off? Why do you hide yourself in times of trouble?
Psalm 10:13 Why does the wicked man revile God? Why does he say to himself, “He won’t call me to account”?
Psalm 22:1 [ Psalm 22 ] [ For the director of music. To the tune of “The Doe of the Morning.” A psalm of David. ] My God, my God, why have you forsaken me? Why are you so far from saving me, so far from my cries of anguish?
Psalm 42:9 I say to God my Rock, “Why have you forgotten me? Why must I go about mourning, oppressed by the enemy?”
How many prophets and people of God asked, “Where are you God?” or “I told you this was going to happen!” or “Really? My wife is going to die because you want me to be an object lesson for Israel?”
We don’t have record that Ezekiel said that to God, but since God calls his wife “the delight of your (Ezekiel’s) eyes” you know that Ezekiel must have been more than a little upset. He faithfully records this situation without mourning publicly as he was told, even without mourning in the book he wrote. Wow. How can God ask that of his prophet?
But he did. Now let’s jump back to today.
I know you’ve gone through turmoil. I know you’ve had storms in your life. You might even be having them now. I have enough faith in God’s love for us that I know that someone out there needs to hear that in spite everything, in spite of all the terrible emotions that are raging in your soul, the Lord loves you. He’s not afraid to hear you ask, “What are you doing God?”
“This doesn’t make sense!”
“How can this be good for my children?”
“Where are you?”
“Why did you let this happen?”
As I’ve said, multiple times, God may not answer your questions, but its okay to ask. Tell him how you feel. Find solace in his love. Your storms may not be over, but they might be. You see, when it’s storming outside, none of us really knows when the storms are going to end. We might be going through the last squall before the end.
Go to the Bible. Look for all the turmoil you can find and see what the Lord has to show you.