Monday is a day that is mostly a catch up day for me and so I don’t necessarily follow my usual routine. This last Monday morning I was unable to walk around the church like I have been doing since beginning the Face Book fast and believing the Lord for this astronomically huge dream of mine to produce Christian movies out of the Four Square church building that’s for sale on 9th and Cherokee in Bartlesville.
John came home for lunch late and after I took him back I decided to take my bike to the church and do my walk/pray around.
That’s when I started to experience THE FEAR FACTOR.
“There’s going to be a lot more people out in the afternoon.”
“You don’t have time to go walk and pray around the church.”
“What are people going to say?”
“They’re going to think you’re crazy!”
“What if you see someone you know?”
By the time that last fear factor sentence entered my mind I knew I had to grit my teeth and go. I dismissed all the fear factor voices and got on my bike, rode to the church, locked the bike and started my walk around.
Fear, whether real or imagined, can be a difficult thing to overcome. As I sit here now typing this blog, I think of Joshua at Jericho. He must have had some Fear Factor voices in his head too, but the Lord told him, gave him courage:
“Do not be afraid, or dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.” Joshua 1:9
So I went to the church and prayed…
No one questioned me.
No one made fun of me.
No one threw me in an insane asylum.
And now I feel stronger in the Lord because He helped me fight the fear factor and do as He was calling me.
Yes, I may look foolish and weak. I certainly don’t have what it takes to see this through, but God uses what the world calls foolish and weak to accomplish amazing things. Through those things His name is glorified. Let it be as the Lord knows best!
And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 2 Corinthians 12:9